Tonight the sun shall see its light.

gg to amos' family.

{ Friday, March 02, 2007 @ 1:54 PM }

juz came back from chalet.
just one day away from home i see weird things happening.
my brother's msn account. got MY PICS! my super ugly pics.
i dun think hes stupid lor, he should know how to use explorer to view pics.
he told me he was only using it to see see only.
smlj. tok to him on the phone. he jitao say later i go home then talk la. then cut me off.
WTF. its fuckin sian u know.
msged him saying that i was fuckin pissed he told me 'like i even care'

he once got into trouble in zss. and i realy thought it was cool u know, telling that idiot 'like i even care'
he told me that.
i can say my heart shattered man. dun know why .
but fuckin true.

so worried that when he gets to secondary sch he'll get into the troubles that i've gotten into.
so fuckin worried.
but when i knew he was going to zss, i was super relieved.
ppl like wei jie, yankuang, can look after him.
at least he'll be living his sec sch life like a normal kid.
i saw his msn nick . something like 'sec sch life so boring canot go unity'
u know how fuckin disappointed i was?
i know zss not a gd sch. but at least he'll be safer ther.
wif all those lj ppl extorting , threatening
which bro wouldnt b worried. knn

FUCK.
frens quarrel.
family oso quarrel.
i hate my life.

my parents realy dun like seeing us quarrel,
and i juz dun want to let them wry,
my bro tok to me like i'm some kind of idiot.
he make me feel so fuckin useless u know.
i dun even hav the authority to lecture them
fuck usually when their home, my parents have to work.
i'm still the eldest wad.
why cant i try to kp them tel them wad i feel is wrong?
is that wrong?
FUCK U TELL ME LA. CB
many times i tried not to hit him u know, he realy make me feel like doing so.
i tried throwing chairs around. tried hitting walls and shit,
i even tried locking up the computer, dun let him play his favorite games,
but fuck. after like half an hour later i will go unlock the comp for him without him asking.
i dun even know why
HE KNOW OR NOT CB.
now he treat me like this , i may sound like gay or sissy or wadeva fuck.
but i'm fuckin hurt .
u know how much pressure i've been under or not. wrying boutwhether u 2 are safe at home or not.

izzit becoz i haven spent more time wif them?
that they'll become so fuckin disrepectful?
i cant even try to ask him properly wad happened?
he fuckin give me attitude.
say its not his fault. should find out the truth b4 scolding him?
LANJIAO.
i called my sis to ask b4 i even think of him lor.
FUCKING CB. mayb they think i dun even care.
mayb i'm a fuckin uselless bro .
mayb i should juz dun care so much bout them, coz i juz realised he dun even care.

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